home time
below is a post i meant to publish before christmas. the reason it went unpublished is cuz i couldn't finish my thought. I had no resolution and I think I still don't. I don't really know how to deal with moving and the relationships you lose when you leave. Anyways, my thoughts:hello all,
tis the season to gather and be with family and reflect on the year that's past. in cleaning up my place before i leave for the holidays, i came across a list that i made in Dec '06 (before i moved to lloyd) of the pros and cons if of coming to here. the list in itself has triggered a lot of emotions.
in a sense, i love and hate moving at the same time. on one side, you challenge yourself to engage in new environments, meet new people, re-evaluate your values, re-check your ego. but, on the other end, you're leaving the relationships that you've developed, the routine that you've worked to establish, the familiarity, the homieness of home. by no means am i a veteran of relocating (in fact i've only moved twice), but i've already developed a distaste of knowing that your stay will be temporary. when looking to get yourself involved in something, the question "is it worth it?" always pops into my mind. "will i be here long enough to make an impact, to make it worth my time?" for the most part, i've resolved to live like i'm not going to leave. i value the relationships that i've created and i don't think they would be the same had i had a 'temporary' attitude.
posted by eigenlamer @ 4:21 PM
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